Psalm 118:24

I promised Kevin I would get some sleep, since I'm exhausted and have to drive to Ahwatukee for work and be there by 8 am. Kill me. Please, somebody kill me. It's not that I am not a morning person, it's just that the first 5 minutes of being awake is the worst feeling ever. I can imagine hell would be like getting out of bed over and over and over again. Not trying to make an insightful analogy, just being honest.

It's seldom I get those moments where I feel so tiny and insignificant in the grand scheme of things, since I'm unfortunately selfish and sometimes think the world revolves around me, but the other day I got one so massive that it gave me goosebumps. I often think I'm invincible (but doesn't everyone when they're young?) and that I'm guarenteed another day if I mess up today. When I stop to think about it, though, what is God using me for now? Why does he want me here? Because I don't think I have done anything spectacular, I figure I still have some time on this earth before God gets rid of me. But what if I have served my purpose? What if I was created for the sole purpose of becoming a catalyst in somebody's life? It's scary to think about how enormous and powerful God is. Our human minds cannot even comprehend eternity. If we are able to die every day for Jesus on this earth, we get to spend eternity with him. Wow.

I figure when the elect get to heaven, everybody is going to have so many questions for God. You better believe I have a list of questions that I'm going to ask, but those will stay in my pocket until after orientation (I'm pretty sure God is going to have a "heaven orientation", since everybody will be new to the heaven thing. Also, this is where he will answer all of the frequently asked questions and give closure to controversial subjects. The answers will be so obvious that we will slap ourselves.). After heaven, it will be a free-for-all, like releasing a pack of children into Chuck-E-Cheese. We will get to spend eternity with God, our creator and father. No combination of words could possibly describe what this feeling will be like. All I know is that I am desperately excited.

But if you go to hell (and lets really hope you don't), you will be waking up to the most awful, shrilling alarm clock you could ever imagine. Over and over again.

All I know is is that I want to be as far away from that stupid alarm clock as possible. And for me, that means loving God with all I've got. Which is much more than I am giving Him.

This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.
Psalm 118:24

^^To remind me that today is a gift. I must rejoice today since I may not have a tomorrow.

Sorry I have been all over the place tonight. I hope you understand.

-Kristen